Theoretically, I am confident
In practice, I am shaking, shivering,
scared morsel of a girl
Too little thoughrs to write down
Too many not to
Physically, I am big
Inside, I am small, smile-coated,
Wonderment slimed over
Self-destruction, I should list on my resume
After all, I am better at it than Physics
~Jax
I am a helpless romantic
A whirlwind of crushes and infatuation
I know I am a tornado
But I had never thought of the house
Until you
I am not content with pining
From afar you see
Wzvering mask of freidly.
Not enough.
I want to date the hell out of you
And though I write this, you wont see it
If I ask and you dont notice
Did I really do it at all?
~Jax
I was best prepared for the worst situation
But I think I got that from the stars
So when I fell it was a surprise
Grit and bone mashed together
A carvenous symphony
Mass lack of sympathy
I was rotten before it started
~Jax
The sun reflected light off the moon
There then here
Bringing me dreams from faraway stars
In places I have never been before
In galaxies that are so far
That I just let them wash over me
Like strawberry sundaes we shared
Summer sweetness in our hair
The threat of school over our shoulders
But I was never one to be Orpheus anyway
But you were
And I’m not saying that the classroom was our Eurydice
But we were just coming out of the Underworld
And I saw your head turn
School, ugh.
~ Jax
The air sticks to my skin
Buttered popcorn and dr.pepper
Love no matter what the weather
Tide creeps in
Slowly turnin’, stomach churnin’
Too much lovin’, heart is burnin’
You are too much compassion
You are too much warmth
You are too much it’s hurtin’
You are much too much, too much
Oh, I promised I’d stay forever
But I cannot do that, sir
Oh, I vowed I’d leave you never
But, ma’am, I’m just too burnt
Fire cold like heaven
Gold and silver meld together
Molten, precious, alloy tether
Ice fills me, heat me baby
I can hear your heartbeat
Mine in the middle, yours can meet
You are too much compassion
You are too much warmth
You are too much its hurtin’
You are much too much, too much
Oh, I promised I’d stay forever
But I cannot do that, sir
Oh, I vowed I’d leave you never
But, ma’am, I’m just too burnt
I will stay here and wither, weathered
And you won’t come for me
I would rather be a flower than live mistakenly
I am blue, and purple, and bruisin’
All I’ve ever had of love was one of someone else’s choosin’
So knit me up, please sit my dear, this will take some explainin’
I’m sorry that all I can feel is burn and freeze and payin’
Burnt dollars
Burnt damage
Burns on my soul
It’s carnage
~Jax
Cloudy smog exits my head, my lungs
Massss in a gray ghost
Suspended above my head, yes, but undone
I’m close enough to witness
Smoke curling off your tounge
I know what that means
Messages burn like tinder and
Signal fires are the best ones
I was busy/sleeping yesterday, oops.
~Jax
If your freckles were for every star in the sky
I could walk across the galaxy
The universe in the curve of our arms
Sporting infinity against my cheek
With the brush of a finger across yours
Oops again, one day latee
~Jax
A little singy-song for you. Also, I’m caught up, yay. ~ Jax
She’s in the water
She’s in the water
Me or her
You have to choose
I’m the boat
And I am rocking
I’m the boat
You are falling
For both of us
Where will you land
For both of us
Where will you land
She’s in the water
Me or her
You have to choose
She’s in the water
Down from the river
Flowed from the bayside
In from the sea
She’s in the water
Ready to catch you
I’m the boat
Ready to be
She’s in the water
Me or her
You have to choose
She’s in the water
I am the boat
She’s in the water
Me or her
You have to choose
You are falling
Pumping softly in my skull
I can hear my
Slightly straining scalp
Forward and back
Forward and back
Would I look nice
On a heart attack
Of fleshy feelings
Made waiting water
I learned to love
The motion of swimming
Since I was small
But I haven’t felt young
In an arduous, aching while
So, toss and turn me
I have no fear for
your frozen glacier glares
The tip of an iceberg
turned upside down
Is your warm weathered center
This turned out far more accidentally sexual than anticipated, oops. Pay it no mind. Also, pay no mind to the fact that this is a day late.
~Jax
I can handle anger
I can handle the type one sinks into
Pulsing palpitations you know aren’t healthy
The fire in your soul consuming you
All you have is oxygen to put it out
And everyone knows
that doesn’t work
I can handle sad
I can handle the type one chokes on
The way it clogs your throat and your mind
feels like its to the brim with ways
To better the burning in your eyes
Turn it to compartmentalize
On accident
You let it
I missed Day 3, oops.
~Jax
Fall Into The Shining Sunrise 